The Summer Diary

I haven’t actually experienced myself as a 16-year-old yet, much less be attuned to the fact that I’m seventeen this year. My, I can’t even bring myself to type out the numbers. I still have trouble quite getting used to Isabel being 16. Pathetic. Now everyone, the documents, are screaming at me to tell me I’m seventeen this year. I’m as alarmed as everyone else I spoke to that Isabel is going to take her A-level’s next year, is going to be eighteen, and she’s going to go to university! Please, no. I enjoy youth, being a Student, have fun making friends, stressing over academics, not having to worry as much as Adults do, learning, and struggling with fitting in.

Which brings me to reflect the past 2 days as a junior in TJC. I’ve accepted and embraced TJC with both hands now than before. Cass is right being, since we can’t be in XJC, why not discover the greatness in TJC and learn to love it, since we’ll be in here for 2 years.

The phrase there’s a reason for everything is convincing me to be a true, loyal TJC student. What can be worse? If everyone’s loving their school, well, so am I. TJC deserves better than to be treated as a place where rejects go (or so Jun Liang calls it ).

Some good has come out of this so far:

1. Cass and I, as predicted, has reunited once again. I’m glad I have her around to tide me through the few days. My old me would, shamelessly, chuck her aside after meeting new people. I stand now, aside, and learning not to turn my back on somebody because I’ve found someone else better.
2. Ada has entered TJC too, unexpectedly. I guess things do happen for a reason. Or maybe this affinity calls for something better. It may be our 2nd chance, or maybe not.
3. “Nemesis” did not turn up in my school, which meant one less person obstructing my path to a renewed self! Notwithstanding exterminating her evil aura completely, it’s just one pawn left. Whichever, I don’t need external environment to influence what I want to be inside, in a corny or not corny way.
4. “Jinx” reported in school too. I guess it’s a chance for us to rediscover each other. I always knew there is this one part in each of us that synchronizes We’ve come this way so far. One of the longest known friend I’ve ever met. Hmm..
5. My neighbour-cum-pri.school friend has entered TJC too! Sherlynn lives diagonally across from me, almost 5 steps away from my apartment only. Now we can go to school together every single day. Heh. I’m a real lucky kid

I conclude:

1. TKGS girls are pretty and Maris Stella boys are cute (I take my words back!), in general. No pun nor offence intended! ^^
2. Peculiarly, most of Mrs Tan’s students are taking BCME. This might just be the choice most of her students go to, thanks to being under her. Ironic. FYI, Mrs Tan was our Sec3 & 4 Physics teacher. Ho ho ho.

This new year in TJC promises a whole new experience for me, and I’m determined not to stain it with the ungodly side of me. I’m going to fill every part of me being involved in TJC with meaningful activities and making a difference this year as compared to the last.

i’m sick of living under your skin. i’m sick of doing everything wrongly. brainwash me.